Already pissed off. First thing to come out of my mom’s mouth? “When is your winter break? I need the car.”

And so I hung up on her. I’m not afraid to hang up on her anymore. Fuck her. That’s all she fucking cares about. For fuck’s sake, shut your dumb mouth or I’m not going to call. You know from now on, I’m just going to call my dad in order to fulfill my obligatory phone calls home. Can’t you pretend to care about me for at least a few minutes before you whine about how much your life sucks because you refuse to drive my dad’s car? You can’t even wait until March when my dad has promised to buy you a brand new stinking car.

I’m just so mad to the point where all I want to do is let out a stream of curse words. I still try to maintain a dumb relationship and you don’t give two shits. I don’t know why I try. I’m never going to learn my lesson. You will never change. I only can assume that the only way you treat me horribly and have no regards to my feelings is because I’m the only child who dares to do things on her own. I’m independent from you all and I’m living the life you desperately want. It sickens me that you have no care for my wants and my life and you’d easily trade in my freedom and life just so you can get wasted with an alcoholic.

You’re acting like an immature child. Eileen is a good person and all, but she’s becoming a bad influence on you. She’s an alcoholic who drinks way too much for anyone. Why? Because she’s single and alone with no friends. So she spends all of her nights getting drunk. And now that she has you, she’s getting you to get really drunk with her. Ever since you met her, you’ve had more nights of vomiting from too much alcohol than you’ve ever had. And you’re almost fifty years old! It’s utterly pathetic. Then she drags you off to Vegas and god knows what you guys did there. You’re sabotaging your life for something you’re going to regret later on in life. You’re eager to drop all of your responsibilities for fun. No, life doesn’t work that way. You can have fun, but not at the risk of your business and family. Grow the fuck up. Or you’re going to lose everything. Then you can live with Eileen and together drink away your misery and loneliness together.

Bah, forget you. I’m going to live my own life and do what I want. Go fuck yourself.